Friendship...
can take different forms.
It can run like a river,
quietly and sustainingly
through life;
it can be an intermittent
sometime thing;
or it can explode like
a meteor,
altering the atmosphere
so that nothing ever feels
or looks the same again.
~Molly Haskell

Finally!!! After the longest wait ever!!! Ha Ha!!!

Hi everyone! As all of you have noticed, the blog has been going for almost years but there was not a single entry by me. Very sorry, for some reasons I could not be a part of it. Maklumlah, computer rosaklah, busy mempertahankan negara setiap hari dan spending time with all my loved ones... So now, I'll start. Be warned! I think it's gonna be superbly long... Jgn tertodi sua lah.

First and foremost, kakak, I have always respected you and surprisingly as it seems, you seems to be the one understanding me the most, even though we seldom talk when we meet up. But after reading your last blog, I made up my mind to say something. I was sorry if I made you wait during the kenduri but if I could remember correctly, I did sms you saying that I am unable to make it due to work commitments. Anyway, from what you said, I have to agree that I have always believed that whatever you feel, should be personal, but sometimes you just want to be heard, right? I still remember the day you told me that you have achieved in getting your car licence, seriously speaking, as surprised as I was, I was also complimented to have the honour of keeping the secret from the other wonders. Sorry gals...

For Shida, I have been your classmate from Yr 1 and by right, I should be the one understanding you the most, but I know you are closer to Mar. Gals, stop talking about priorities. We just learn from our mistakes. Babe, you are not alone. I may be appear well-to-do and sometimes berlagak, but who knows, deep inside me, I am also thinking about my finances. Just bear in mind, I am also supporting the family, house loan, bills and others. My parents are older than yours so the pressure is more on me as I do not want them to overwork themselves. To say it crudely, I dunno when they'll live until. They have been living in poverty since young, so now I want them to have the best of the world. That's my philosophy. I guess what the girls want was not only your presence, but the courtesy of you telling us you not being able to make it beforehand, so people won't have to wait and get disappointed in the end. Even during the picnic, we were contented that you dropped by even though it was only for a while. Like what you mentioned, it's the thought that counts.

If by any means, someone feel that she was being left out, the person should be me! Gals, ask yourselves these few questions?

1) Who is the only one who always bring someone along just to try to make it 8 so that everyone has a 'so-called' partner?

2) Who is the only one who smokes non-stop and tried drinking alcoholic drinks?

3) Who is the only one who goes clubbing?

4) Who is the only one who had relationships with both genders?

5) Who is the only one who doesn't believe in make-up and dressing up?

6) Who is the only one who rides and interested in bikes?

If you guys notice, the answers to all the questions will bring you to just one person, but why you guys think I just kept my mouth shut? It's because I think it's childish to be felt left out. I strongly think that my friends should accept me as the way I am and I am comfortable being that way. Friends should accept each other with their flaws. Come on! Wake up! Tell me where can you find a perfect someone. Girls, I thank each and everyone of you for accepting me as the way I am, the sarcasm, vulgarities and craziness...

So girls, we learn to forgive and forget, even though I know it's really hard but we have to learn. Let's just forget the ugly past and start on a brand new future...